March 12, 2004
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Yo! It's DarkWolf comijng at ya today. Thought I would write a few lines to see if it would relieve the stress going on inside of me. I feel all caged up right now.
When Stormy isn't paying any attention we can slip right in and share time with her but when she IS paying attention, like at the tdoc's sessions, she makes it impossible for us to slip in and talk to the tdoc ourselves. I don't know what I would actually say to the tdoc if I could slip in, but it would be nice if I could talk to the woman myself. Maybe I will just write her a letter in the journal pages that Stormy gives to her each session. That would work.
I have a lot of horrid memories because it was me that most of the stuff happened to. Well, I took 99% of the sexual abuse while Slone took 99% of the physical abuse. We ALL took the verbal and the emotional abuse, even Stormy. There was just no real way to protect her from that unless we zoned her out completely and we were afraid of losing her if we did that to her.
She is coming back out of a depressive cycle right now, which is good. It plays havoc with all of us when she is depressed or manic. We feel the effects too, just not as extremely as Stormy. Well, except Chrissy. She feels them every bit as much as Stormy and it is hard to see little Chrissy go through that. Little Stormy seems to feel them a lot more then us too. Maybe it's because they are kids and they sense it more? I don't know.
Well, that is about all I have to say right now. I just needed to get that out.
Later.
DarkWolf
Comments (2)
Hey Guys! I'm glad Stormy is doing better!!!
As for the little ones, just stay by there sides.
you have wonderful courage, all of you. thank you for sharing your stories, because there is so much you have to teach. i do have a question, though... who is tina? is she the same as christina? and when did she emerge?
i wish you all happiness
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